Slowly getting to the point
As I've been writing out these stories and my feelings I have been slowing down. The faster I get through my previous experiences and recall the emotions of them, the faster I have to get to discussing my latest experience. There are so many things I'm not sure I've dealt with. I think writing it all out will help, but I'm also afraid of dredging up such fresh memories and trying to decide how I really feel about them. There were so many good things but so many difficult things that happened, so my recounting of my last birth may get a bit disjointed.